Okay

You are okay. You are painless. You gave the pain to us. We shall all shoulder that burden together. Shoulder what you had on ur mind for years. But now, I know your okay. I've seen the signs. I know how to listen. She does too. She knows, and it makes it better, but that relief can only take us so far. Are we allowed to selfishly want you back? Even though we know your pain? The promises you made can never be fulfilled. You've branded us, some visibly but all emotionally. Stay will us. See what the community is doing. Please watch over her. Allow her to get up every morning. Allow her to live. I know you are okay. I know you are painless. Now. Care for her, care for him. Care for all. You taught me that love was all you needed. Now love is all you get.

Can't Breathe

The shock of it all still takes me by surprise. I can't connect the two people together. You, the happy sunshine we all knew, and him, the pained, beautiful child. Is it okay that sometimes I can't breathe? That sometimes I can't put on my happy face and smile? I want you to know that I will take care of them. But who's going to take care of me? When I can't breathe? Day five of grief. It feels worse than day four. I heard of video of you singing last night and the pain came like a fresh wave. They say it's gods will maybe. But why can't I breathe.

Sunshine

You know what I wish I knew? Where you are. Where did you go? You left so suddenly, in the most painful way possible. I wish I knew why. I wish I knew how you could do that to someone. I wish you could see us all now. We wait and wait, for some kind of sign from you. Is it ever going to come? You left us all behind. Did you think about that? Did you rationalize? Do you see it now? I have so many questions. Can you help me understand? So many are broken. So many are lost. Is it okay for me to be mad right now? Mad that you were taken from us? I guess I won't know. The sadness that blankets us seems everlasting. Will it go away? Will it ever be okay to be happy again. Truth is sunshine, your light is now missing from all of our lives, leaving us in the dark. I know your light flickered many a time, and I am truly so sorry for that. You will never know how sorry I am for that. But now, so many lights are flickering, and I just want to rewind and take it back to a lighter time. When the warmth of your light was still forming, when you were just a child. Before the pain, before the darkness. Wherever you are now, I hope you've found that place, sunshine. And please, keep it bright till the rest of us get there.